Do you get those nights ...
At the moment the pain's worse than it's ever been. I can't even go dancing, which is one of my coping mechanisms for PTSD. I wonder how many troops would laugh at that? Wake up fellas! Salsa clubs are ace!! You get to dance with some lovely ladies, exercise and socialise : D
The book sales are going well. I had orders for another 32 copies today. All the funds should be able to pay for the reprint of a 1000 copies. Then the real work starts: generating enough money to make up the pieces for the exhibition and renting of the gallery/venue.
I need to find 9 venues in England and at least 3 in Scotland and Wales. Ideally for a month a piece.
I seem to be coping okay with all of this at the moment. I get times when I just seem to stop in mid thought or mid stride. That's a sign that I'm doing too much and I take the time to de-stress and then I sit and do some meditation and some therapy.
One of the things that I've learnt about living with PTSD is that I have to be kinder to myself and allow myself all the time that I need to get to a space where I can function to some degree again. It's an on-going process and some days are better, some worse.
I've been touched by the feedback from some of the people that have read the book. It feels weird to me that an ordinary bloke can put some words to paper and generate the feelings that they have in others.
Time to see what the day has in store for me.
Have a good one